Emily’s #WhenYouKnow Story

Opening up about my mental health journey was not easy, but it was undeniably worth it. I’ve learned that we all wear different faces, and behind each is a unique story that can connect us in unexpected ways

“I was living as an imposter in my own life…”

My life before truly acknowledging my mental health challenges was like walking through a fog. I smiled, I worked hard, and to the outside world, I was ‘successful’ and ‘happy.’ Inside, though, I was crumbling. Days would start with a feeling of dread, and I spent nights restless and anxious. I was living as an imposter in my own life, projecting a front of happiness that wasn’t at all true. My job as a graphic designer required that I show up feeling creative and enthusiastic, but every task felt like a mountain. Even answering simple emails felt impossible.

It was during one regular evening at home…I was watching TV with my sister, when a character on a show discussed her own battle with depression. The character’s description of her feelings—a constant sense of impending doom, the fatigue, the fake smiles—mirrored my own. My sister casually mentioned how realistic the portrayal was, and it struck a nerve. For the first time, I saw my struggle reflected back at me. The realization that I needed help kept playing over in my mind. The next morning, I told my sister everything…the anxiety, the depression, the feeling of isolation.

Admitting my struggles to my sister was like opening a pressure valve. She didn’t dismiss my feelings; instead, she listened and then shared her own struggles with anxiety during college, which I had never known about. It was a moment of profound connection and understanding. Together, we researched and found a therapist who specialized in cognitive-behavioral therapy. With professional help, I began to understand the roots of my anxiety and depression. I learned coping strategies that actually worked—deep breathing exercises, mindfulness, and journaling became part of my daily routine.

It’s been a year since that conversation with my sister. Therapy, ongoing self-care, and an open dialogue about mental health with my loved ones have transformed my life. I now recognize the importance of speaking out. The barriers I faced were partly societal, but many were self-imposed by my own fears and the stigma I internalized about being ‘weak.’ Now, I see strength in vulnerability and the power of shared experiences.

Opening up about my mental health journey was not easy, but it was undeniably worth it. I’ve learned that we all wear different faces, and behind each is a unique story that can connect us in unexpected ways. By sharing mine, I hope to reach someone who, like me, might be suffering in silence. You are not alone, and it is okay not to be okay.

My journey started with a simple yet brave act of saying out loud what’s been kept inside. It’s about knowing you deserve help and allowing yourself to seek it.